Sunday, December 12, 2010

76

You know what? I now weigh 76.9 kilos. My goal is 65, my Dr's goal is 60. God it's so close I can feel it.
BUT.
I went to Rivers, bought a size 14 jeans. My god, size 14! I haven't worn size 14 in about ten years!!
So tell you what, it's great, but I feel the same. I still feel like the BIG girl. I see big girls walk past, about my previous size, and I still feel like them. I still feel their pain of being big. I still don't think I can squeeze past people in restaraunts etc, yet I can quite easily. I still feel like I am taking up too much room.
God when will this head Fuck go? It's hard!